Silence & Circumspection

For those who still check here and have noticed a lack of recent content I decided a long time ago only to post when I had something to say.

As of late my masonic voice has been a bit silent. I have been questioning some internal business within my heart and have been meditating on how I feel about certain particulars which will go unnamed.

This situation has struck a particular chord within my heart and has rung ever since. I am a bit disheartened at this and have consulted privately with many brethren (both those within and without my jurisdiction) exactly what it is I should do about this. I realize it comes down to me & a matter of how I feel in my heart – and my heart is very upset. I basically have two options: stand up for what I believe is right or ignore the whole thing entirely.

The issue with this is I feel if I bring it up now I will cause harm between myself and the physical and mental Freemasonry I know and love. If I don't bring it up I won't be standing up for what I believe in. As one brother succinctly said “it is not that often that one gets to stand up for what is truly right”.

You see; what's going on is the exact opposite of what I believe we are taught as masons from the beginning. It is one of the first things we hear as far as teachings go in Freemasonry and yet I feel it is the first that has been ignored for far too long. It is quickly becoming fixed in many jurisdictions. In some it was never an issue to begin with.

I had originally thought to demit. The seriousness of this contemplation came to me after another talk with a brother who said “we can't change the system for the positive if we are not there”.

I feel as though I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I can't deny this because I don't believe in it but I can't seem to pull the trigger on affirmative action, either.

I know this is incredibly vague. I'm putting how I feel out mentally. Have you ever felt the same in any way and what did you do to fix it in the most amicable way possible for all involved? For the brethren who are reading that I have talked to personally about this I want to thank you from the bottom of my masonic heart.

To leave this on a positive note we have been booming with degree work. We entered two brothers and raised two more. We are entering another in a week, hopefully passing another at the end of this month and raising another the month after that in a Past Masters Degree Night.

All is not hopeless; All is not lost.

“Behold! How good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity...”